Which of my senses is most easily overwhelmed? My brain and eyes get exhausted by motion and color in my visual field. I hate to be touched, except by cats. I eat bland food and struggle with the "big flavors" in feeding therapy. I gag at smells that other people hardly notice. But the winner, the one that takes the cake, is my auditory sensitivity.
I hate loud noises, but I also hate constant noise. Both at the same time is torture for my brain. And what happens at work? Dogs. They bark. They're both loud and constant. For 6 hours, I can hear barking dogs. Sometimes they're right next to me as I clean their cages, and other times they're far off in the distance, but they're forever barking.
Barking dogs make for a very, very overwhelmed Lydia. They startle me when they start so suddenly, and they make me freeze. I stop dead. It's kind of like when I step out into freezing cold weather and I can't breathe in for a second or two.
I'm so edgy and trying so hard to hold it all in (no melt downs at 1am, please; my parents are sleeping) that it's almost impossible to write. I've been squeaking this post out a phrase at a time. Can you feel the effort behind every word?
All because of the barking dogs.