Monday, July 27, 2009

New group

So far, GFCF is going very well. My blood sugar crashed in the middle of the night, and I absent-mindedly threw together a bowl of cereal with (gasp) regular milk. I have been paying the price for the past 18 hours! I guess after getting a break from it, my poor stomach just can't handle the stuff. Ugh. I like how I've been eating. For example, today I had GF cereal and almond milk for breakfast, a few peanuts and dried figs as a snack, two eggs and a piece of GF toast for lunch, then brown rice with 1/2 a chicken breast and green beans for dinner. Yum! No "cardboard" here!

Tomorrow starts the new autism group. When I was discharged from partial, they discharged me to this group. I guess it's mostly social skills-based. To be honest, I have very little idea of what to expect. I know that it's 8 people, 6 of them men, mostly mid- to late-20s. I don't really know what we're going to do or talk about. I'm really nervous.

What if I don't like autistic people? What if I'm nervous around them? What if I don't know what to say? What if, and please don't let this happen, what if I'm still the one weirdo that no one knows what to do with? What if no one likes me? What if I don't fit in?

I never seem to fit in. Why would this be any different? I'm so, so hoping that it is.

1 comment:

  1. Thanks for this blog. Just found it and I am now all caught up. I have a 5 year old daughter with HF autism so this is just wonderful insight into her world. And by the way, I think she has "it" also. I can see it at times...

    Thanks again, I will keep reading.
    God bless you.