What I Wish You Knew

I wish you knew that, truly, the last thing I want is to hurt you.

I wish you knew that I want to make your life easier, not harder.

I wish you knew that I want to be the "normal" daughter you wanted.

I wish you knew that I can't be that daughter.

I wish you knew that I don't want you to fix me. That I like who I am.

I wish you knew that I NEED you to be supportive.

I wish you knew that I don't repeat the same conversations to dwell or drive you crazy but because I find a lot of comfort in that.

I wish you knew that I desperately want to do understand. But I don't.

I wish you knew that I know just how much I burden you.

I wish you knew that I really, really am trying my best.

I wish you knew that I do like making progress.

I wish you knew that when you push for it too fast, that I shut down.

I wish you knew that, right now, my emotions are often out of my control.

I wish you know how much I hate that, how much it scares me.

I wish that you believed me.

I wish that you would believe in me, too.