Friday, December 31, 2010

just life.

this writing thing sure isn't getting any easier. but i want to do it, so i'm going to give it a shot. forgive the scatteredness?

the first thing that comes to mind is new year's eve. it's probably my least favorite day of the year. i mean, i "went out" to a movie with a guy when i was 16, but other than that, i haven't ever gone anywhere or seen anyone. for quite a few years, i've either been crying because i'm yet again by myself or sleeping when the big time comes. today, i'll babysit from 6:30-9 (seven children; two with autism and one i highly suspect has asperger's) so wish me luck. it's been an uncomfortable, antsy week, so it should be interesting.

christmas was mostly really good... my dad gave me a sewing machine to make my doll clothes, my mom got me some cute odds and ends even though she already got me my laptop, and my sister got me my coveted, no-longer-available felicity american girl doll. she's beautiful and she goes even from room to room with me. so far she has a christmas dress and bonnet, a blue button-down shirt and brown polka dot skirt, a blue flannel nightgown and mob cap, and i'm just starting to work on a patchwork quilt for her. i can't say i'm anything wonderful on the machine yet, but i'm getting better and enjoying it.

i'm quite frustrated at myself for not being able to write any sort of cohesive blog post anymore. all i can do is kind of update and go over what's been happening. what happened to real posts? is it that nothing happens anymore, or is it that i just can't write about it?

5 comments:

  1. I wouldn't worry, Lydia. A lot of my blog posts are like that! Anyway, I find it pretty interesting that you're making clothes for your doll.

    I hope you enjoy New Year's Eve after all. You must be an excellent babysitter for kids with autism - how nice to have a babysitter who really understands! Your friends are lucky.

    Wishing you all the best for 2011.

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  2. Happy New Year Lydia!

    Don't worry about the blogging. As long as you are enjoying posting the blog, that is all that matters.

    Sounds like a very successful Christmas. I am so glad you got your Felicity Doll :-) The sewing machine sounds like lots of fun.

    I am sending you good luck vibes *~*~*~ for the babysitting tonight. I know you will do awesome with the kids.

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  3. Glad to hear from you today and wishing you a happy new year!

    That's great that you can make your own doll clothes. Sewing was always tricky for me, so I stuck to things like cross-stitching, but I haven't done that in a long time.

    Good luck with all the kids tonight - sounds like quite an adventure, watching so many kids at once!

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  4. You know, you said I think in your last post that you were blogging so you can be helpful to other parents so they could read what autism is from an autistics point of view. Well, taking a break from something when you can't force it out is autism. Coming back to write some scattered thouights of updates because you feel like it even though it's not any easier to write, is autism. More importantly, it's just human and I appreciate all your posts no matter what you have to say. I think letting all those things come out or not come out in there own time contributes to our growth so don't let the blog become a source of must do or must do to a certain standard.

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  5. that IS a blog post, they dont have to be arranged any special sort of way, just tell what's on your mind and give us a window into your life.

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